From "Anything But God" To It's All God

Welcome To My Testimony: Part 1

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal." Isaiah 26:3-4

We learn to trust not by a way of materialistic means but by a way of relationship.

Ten to twenty years ago, I couldn't even say the name "God,"

Nor look at a cross, neither did I know one lick of scripture.

Five years ago, I "warmed up" to the idea of a higher power

Though, I called Him anything but God;

I bargained with the "divine" or the "universe."

The "consciousness" or the "energy."

Yet, I called Zeus a God without a doubt,

I called Lilith a Goddess with confidence,

I even believed that I was a reincarnation of a well-known deity

(which is a story for another time),

& I spent most of those years worshipping the creation--the moon, the sun, the stars.

I gave thanks to the moon for her wisdom. I praised the sun for his glory.

I counted the stars for peace.

Yet, I neglected to thank, praise, and find peace in the One who created these very things I worshipped. In other words, I failed to give credit where credit was earned.

Have you ever felt like your labor has been neglected; like maybe your boss fails to mention your name at the meeting though you are the one who is carrying the weight of the business? Does your caring nature ever feel invisible; like maybe your spouse isn't giving you the credit you deserve for raising your child? Has someone ever taken ownership of something that you built, created, or nurtured? It doesn't feel good, does it?

God works through us in mysterious ways but God also works through us in straightforward ways. He is pretty straightforward throughout the whole Bible that He is the creator.

BUT even without the knowledge of the Bible or ever having read it, God is in our thoughts, infusing us with this message every day. I didn't need to read the Bible to know that God was personally sending me this message. I didn't need a church or discipleship. Some people do, and that's okay. I understood God's message because I desired a relationship with Him & relationships require your time and present nature--all of which I decided to give. So without further ado, how did I go from 'anything but God' to its ALL God?

Seven months ago, I was living on one of the most beautiful islands of Hawaii; the Big Island.

I had it all--the moon, the sun, the stars, the mountains, the valleys, the volcanoes, the forests, the ocean--all of it was there for me to put my 'trust' in, for me to pray to, for me to dwell in and most importantly, at that time, for me to heal in.

When I first arrived on the Big Island, someone described the island to me like this:

It's called the Big Island for a reason--everything is spread around the outer edges of the island but also, everything revolves around the mountain, Mauna Kea. So essentially, there's an outer circle and an inner circle and then, a center.

I managed to make it around the entire island. Each landscape and environment were entirely different--all with their own unique message. Yet, at the center--on Mauna Kea--I began to hear one distinct voice within them all.

I had to know whose voice that was.

Here's the thing; it isn't wrong to find healing in nature. That's not at all what I'm saying. By the design of God, I believe that it is correct: nature heals us. God created nature for a very specific and brilliant reason. He created nature first, before man.

He knew, by the way of his design, to build our bodies in a way that would respond to nature. Nature is an earthly home but it is also a spiritual tool. It is a pathway that connects us to God --though it is and it is not separate from God at the same time.

The voice that you hear in the wind has not been separated into two distinct voices. There is not "the voice of the wind' and then, "the voice of God."

There is just God's voice speaking through the wind.

The tree that tells you to "stand tall" is God's voice.

The ocean that tells you to &